1:20 AM, 19th of Last Seed 4E 201

I had strange dreams last night, I was standing in a pitch black forest and I could hear whispering in the distance. I don't know what happened, but I started to feel extremely angry. I couldn't control i; each inaudible whisper growing the hatred inside me. Building up until the banks of my mind couldn't hold the river of anger, which erupted from my palms in a fiery tide, flooding the forest in a blood-red haze, sending elk and deer sprinting from the inferno. Even the torchbugs fled as the heat became intense. Burning sweat on my head began to boil as the heat became so intense it felt as if my skin would melt off my bones.
I woke up in a pool of my own sweat, the distant sound of a bard singing some song about a Redguard man. I quickly gathered my things; the items I had stolen from those poor guys I’d ruthlessly murdered with an uncontrollable power. I quickly left the inn without a word to anybody.

I had enough guilt burdening my mind to ignore a promise I had made to Farengar the night before. I duly entered the apothecary and approached the woman at the encounter. I explained I had agreed to deliver some Frost Salts for Farengar. The woman gave me three potions in return, and then explained that she was trying to make a love potion and passively suggested to herself that she would try it out on Farengar. Detecting a hint of romanticism and feeling that I may be intruding upon the apothecarist’s internal ramblings I left without a word

I made for the city gates and heard a few guards assembling to aid Riverwood in its defence against the almost certain dragon attack. I quickly realised that I has no idea where the Mage College is, other than it’s at a city called Winterhold. In an attempt to dodge any unnecessary interrogation, I decided that I’d take a cart to the city rather than ask for directions. I headed off to Whiterun stables and asked the carman to take me to Winterhold. I paid him the fee of 50 gold, and jumped on the back of the cart.

The journey was a pretty uneventful one, to the point where I’m sure I had blacked out for most of it. I arrived at the outskirts of Winterhold, enveloped in a thick whit-out blizzard. I could barely make out the college, but in my haste to find out who I am or what I’m doing in the land of Skyrim, I rushed past a few small buildings and headed towards a stone bridge.

I was halted by a woman who initially refused to allow me to cross the bridge. She explained that the college had gathered somewhat of a bad reputation recently and was under threat from the Nords of Skyrim. In an attempt to secure their defence, nobody is to be let into the college unless they prove their intentions are wholly good. I didn’t feel like explaining my situation openly with this stranger, who eventually introduced herself as Faralda, so thought it best to explain that I wanted to develop my skills in magic (which was partly true; I definitely want to be able to control the volcanic eruption from my hands.) Unfortunately she threw a curveball back at me and asked what I intended to do with my magic. Not knowing much about the ‘art’ I quickly answered that I intended to practice my skills of destruction. She agreed that the college has the means to help me but explained I would need to pass a test that would prove my abilities as a mage.

She begun to teach me a new spell, on that could heal. This was such a relief, I’m not only able to destroy with my hands, but I can also repair. I didn’t feel like missing this opportunity, so I listened intently as she explained how to focus my mind on the process of healing and how the ultimate power comes from the soul and its will to aid. I focused all my might and attempted to focus this new learned skill at Faralda. I was worried I’d burn her alive, but instead of a blinding red flame; a calm, soothing white glow crept from my hands and enveloped my teacher. She seemed pleased and led me across the bridge to the college. She told me to find Mirabelle and returned to her post at the mouth of the bridge.

As I pushed open the large heavy doors into the college grounds I was taken back by the sheer size of the place. The blizzard had previously sheltered the college from view preventing me from fully realising how big this place was. I was sure I’d be looking all day for Mirabelle, but I found her in the courtyard talking to an elf. They were having a heated discussion, which I didn’t intend to disrupt. I waited for their discussion to be over and introduced myself.

Mirabelle gave me a short tour of the college and showed me to my dormitory. She explained that some students had already started a lesson with a teacher known as Tolfdir and that I should make my way there immediately. I obliged and found a small gathering of 4 students complaining to their tutor. I was quickly dragged into the debate and was quickly made to voice my opinions on the sensibility of participating in practical magic lessons.

Without hesitation I agreed with the other students that practical lessons were a must; if I could learn more moral spells maybe I could one day repent for the bad choices I had previously made.

Tolfdir taught us a spell that would ward off offensive attacks. We practiced this for a while and retired to our rooms for the evening. I’m sitting on my bed; much more comfortable than the one at the inn I had slept in the night before. I think I had best get rest, tomorrow I’m going to need some answers and I feel I might pick some more knowledge up on the way.

At some point I must also find this Dragonstone; having spoken to the Jarl of Whiterun himself, I feel somewhat obliged to assist his magical assistant.

12:07 AM, 18th of Last Seed, 4E 201.

12:07 AM, 18th of Last Seed, 4E 201.

I don't know what's going on, but I think I've been caught up in the middle of something very big.

The earliest thing I can remember is sitting in a cart with three other guys, one had his mouth covered; they called him Ulfric.

We were about to be executed, executed! and I don't even know who I am, or why I'm here. Somebody tried to escape and he was killed immediately, there really was no sign of hope.

However, good fortune came in the most mysterious of ways; a dragon attacked the village I was in, Helgen I think they called it! The dragon was a gigantic beast that started burning and destroying the entire village. It was, I'm sure, the most terrifying experience of my life!

In my attempt to escape I was aided by Ralof, a member of the Stormcloaks and a guard - I don't remember his name - who worked for the imperial guard that attempted to tear my head from my body. In a fleeting moment I was presented with the opportunity to follow either men, but cautious to side with the group of soldiers who tried to murder me with no just trial or cause, I fled with Ralof.

I don't know what happened. I got caught up in the terror of the dragon attack, but the Imperials came out of nowhere and started attacking me. Anger and fear built up inside me and flames erupted from the sweaty palms of my hands. Before I knew it both Imperials were dead and Ralof began exploring their pockets and knapsacks. We shared the bounty and began to flee the keep, trying to avoid the dragon at all costs.

During our escape we came across several more Imperials, and without any possibility to try and reason, the soldiers mercilessly attacked Ralof, myself and several other Stormcloaks. Although I have my suspicions that the other Stormcloaks were the ones to initiate the attacks I witnessed, and reluctantly took part in. Each time allowing the anger and fear to flow through my body and out my palms.

Upon escaping the village of Helgen, Ralof led me to a place called Riverwood. A quaint little trade village, in which his sister resides. We explained what happened and in hope of avoiding persecution from the Imperial soldiers once more, Ralof's sister agreed to let us hide in her home. She gave me some much needed food and supplies, and borrowed me her key, in exchange for agreeing to go to a city called Whiterun to request soldiers to protect the village should the dragon attack from the South.

I agreed; it really was the least i could do, I owed my life to her brother and she's allowed me to hide out in her house, something which I'm going to take her up on until i figure what I'm doing in this region. On my way to Whiterun I came across a patrol of Imperials leading a Stormcloack soldier away. Accepting my loyalty to the only people seemingly willing to help, I attempted to free the Stormcloack man, however in the fray and being unable to control the force of flames from my hands I accidentally injured him and he attacked, thinking I was trying to kill him.

I need to learn to subdue this power inside me, I can already feel it growing stronger and it now takes at least half the energy when I lose control; hopefully this is something I can hone in as I progress throughout my adventures.

Finally I reached Whiterun and spoke to the person in charge, known as a Jarl. I explained all about Helgen and how Riverwood and possibly Whiterun were in danger of a dragon attack. He ordered troops to protect Riverwood and introduced me to his mage. His mage asked me to find a 'Dragonstone' so he can locate the birthing grounds of dragons and investigate where they're coming from. As I understand from what people are saying, dragons are only known as stuff of legend; their existence causing more panic than the prospect of any attack.

I've also been asked by the mage, known as Farengar, to deliver some Frost Salts to Arcadia, who I believe to be an alchemist. As I intend to visit the market in the morning I agreed to deliver the goods.

And this is where I am now; sitting by a warm fire at the inn, about to rent a room for the night and get some sleep. Tomorrow I will go to find this Dragonstone, but I must try and find out who I really am. Maybe the Mage College may provide some answers, as I seem to be able to spontaneously combust the air in front of my hands.